*DISCLOSURE - I understand that people try for longer than I have been to have a baby. This is my story and a place for me to get my feelings out*
This month marks the 6 months mark of trying for a second baby. Half a year!!! I don't know why it has been taking us so long to get pregnant since with Sommer all we had to do was think about having a baby and I was pregnant. Every month I calculate and we try, and try, and try and 3 weeks later I am met with disappointment and I cry. I have told myself not to stress about it and to let everything happen on it's own yet inside of me it's all I think about. I just feel so frustrated and disappointed... I wish I knew what was going on.
I am a regular cycle gal - 29 days exactly for the past 3 months and before that it was maybe off by 2-3 days. I am a healthy gal, not overweight or underweight, I eat healthy, and my bloodwork all came back normal at my last check-up... I guess it's just not meant to be yet. I honesty try and stay positive because I know that God has perfect timing for my family. I just need to trust Him. Three of my friends just announced they were pregnant and I am truly happy for them. I am just so jealous and wish it was me joining them on the pregnancy journey.
This process makes me appreciate Sommer and how quickly I was blessed with her. I look at her and think how lucky I am to have such a perfect little angel who is so curious about life and loves her Mommy & Daddy with all her heart. Watching her grow up and explore the world around her is so fun. My life is blessed by her!
We will continue trying for our second angel and I will trust that God will deliever her/him when the timing is right. But if you think of it pray for me as I am frustrated and not the most patient person...
Friday, August 28, 2009
A little lesson in patience
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4 comments:
Melissa, I know the pain very well of trying to get pregnant and not being able to. We went through 3 years of pain like that. Three years of waiting and also of lose of babies. It is hard, I know. But be patient and hang in there. I will be praying for you.
Hey Mel,
I know how much you want another and how hard it must be when it does not happen. Marlene and I experienced that when there were no little brothers or sisters for Chris growing up. For us it just did not happen. But I pray that for you and James and Summer that God will bless you with all you are able to have, and that all of them are healthy.
All the best
I have been praying and I will remain praying!
Sheena
I don't often read your blog (please don't take that in a mean way, I'm more of a facebook person) but I am glad I read this post. Greg and I will be praying for you as I am sure this is not an easy time. We would love to have another baby in the family (hopefully a boy this time) and I am sure it will happen all in good time. I hope all of us have our babies close together again. see you in october.
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